is that I’ll never be good enough.
that I’ll never grow up.
and never truly be loved.
I’d like to see myself in a position where I’m not dependent on anyone so that I might get their love….so that I might get their approval not be theirs because of my lack of ability
I’d rather just be loved conditionally which sounds ridiculous, but in reality this happens all too often.
if this were not the fact – if it wasn’t true that people put conditions on love
then wouldn’t matter whether or not someone had children,
or have been married before,
none of these things would matter.
We will be carefree!
and be loving… and being loved..
we would be able to see without the blinders.
if in fact we were meant to love this way is there is something wrong with the way we are loving RIGHT NOW.
we’re stuck on conditions that outwardly appear to make a person good enough
Who says we’re not worthy. because we don’t fit an imaginary, ever evolving mould?
if I could be with the one, would there be some peace there?
Yet, if the one I seek was with me, but, I ask: would they find peace with me?
So at end of the never ending game and never ending dance, between people
is yet another giant question mark….
Heaven on earth is contentment, joy in the small blessings and stashing up for later…